I
have lost faith in most people. I do have a few people in my life that are
genuine, and I feel very blessed to know them. But in general, I find that too
many people are disappointments. People who use the words "friend"
and "love" loosely! People who cannot be counted on, People who
betray others for their own personal gain. I am, and have always been a genuine
person. It is disheartening. I never tell someone that I love them if I don't
feel it. To do so is deceitful, hurtful and just plain wrong. I have had
someone tell me they love me, only to turn around and hurt me so deeply that I
wanted to die. I have also had people in my life that called me friend, yet
weren't a friend in return. I just don't understand how or why humans can be
this way. I have a tough exterior to protect myself from such, but I am very
(probably overly) sensitive under that shell. When I let someone in, it is by
choice. When that someone abuses my inner being, they are cast out and not
allowed back in. I have to say, that the casting out is painful because I let
so few in. I lose pieces of myself every time.
However,
Life is too short to spend time with people who suck the happiness out of you
i.e. Energy Vampires! If someone wants you in their life, they’ll make space
for you. There will be no agitation or argument or unnecessary conflict. Never
ever force yourself on someone who continuously overlooks your worth. Remember,
it’s not the ones that stand by your side when you’re at your
best.......... but the ones who stand
besides you when you’re at your worst are your truest friends and rarest
jewels!!!
